feels like i'm alone
however I don't get that opportunity
It kinda hurts right now
I cant describe the insecurity
the lonliness I feel that hypnotizes me

Got me thinking all kinds of things
so many things that are unreal
the feelings
I don't even know if realities what I feel

The mind portrays whats real
but could a life like this in my mind
truely be ideal?
The suffocating memorization of pain and envy
the consequences for wanting a real reality
the speed of the minds productivity is without a doubt stunning
The Physical and Mental re-newity
I know it exists

It sits there somewhere behind that mist
the gray mist that shows me whats amidst
but doesn't reveal its self to me
I'm left in an abyss

This sea of Gray haze
its drowning me
I cant understand what anything is these days
I'm even doubting me

I'm trying to wake up
but I'm too busy trying to breathe
I'm trying to not cry
keep my cool but that's not me
its a lie
I'm trying to stay at ease
but its confusing this time

I'm trying to keep my cool
but my minds escaping
Does this make sense to you?
I think the haze is gods shadow forsaking

My mind doesn't make sense to me either
I'm in a mental maze
blinded by a mere haze
of my own thoughts
Do ordain
or at least refrain
from mentioning being inhumane
but is not to restrain

myself from committing the act of spiritual releasal
from this tomb
I call a body its so extinctional
such multifunction
is multifiction

condemnation I would say
The ending of days
the ending of haze
the ending...

of this gray